If I told you what my tears taste like
You wouldn’t in a million years believe me
Here I am again
Driving in a wall of sound
Shutting out the world
Before it shuts me out
I can cry and rage and scream, but
Inside I never feel a thing
Like my body’s still alive
and my brain can’t quite reach it
I’ve been so frozen and so distanced for so long
It’s a wonder I can function
It’s a wonder I’m here at all
Sometimes I think I can laugh myself awake
Or that I could be loved into being
If only I were worth it
Why I keep trying is pretty much beyond me
These words are not a work of art
Just the truth
Something with which I have a tenous relationship
I think I’d rather be a monster than a liar anymore
you can’t really suffer when you’re not all there
So what am I afraid of?
(detritus)(poetica)(myth)(opinion)(divination)